MeRrY ChRiStMaS!!!

Wow.. it's dec ald.. time sure files like light! Christmas is coming! But let us realise the true essence of Christmas is Christ.. Not santa, gifts, food.. etc.. the concept of christmas has been largely diluted to some insignificant worldy desires. and ppl are not realising how christmas came abt. without Jesus, there IS NO christmas.. Also, it's coming to the end of the year, let us reflect on what's our purpose in life, and what we have done throughout the year, a time also to make resolutions and try to keep them.. I suggest anyone who wants to know and realise their full potential and purpose in life to try getting the book, the purpose driven life. You can't miss it, at bookstores.. especially christian ones. It dosen't matter whether or not you are a christain, the book is really meant for YOU.. You won't regret getting it.. neither did i... N let's make the year 2005 an even better and blesssed one! :-) Take care everyone and i'll see ya all next year! Cheers!

It's Gonna Be Dec Soon!

Finally decided to put a title bar.. ahah. I wonder how everyone is... i'm still having my programming lessons nw.. i think i becoming a human computer! ahaha.. in a bad way la.. Can't wait to meet up with old classmates and new friends as well! Wishing every1 a vert merry x'mas in advance!!!... jus in case i don blog here... ahaha.. Cheers! :-)

Wow.. it's been almost 2 mths since i've blogged.. sigh. Have been catching up with my programming stuff lately.. and helping mum and around at home. Everyone's, well, not everyone is having exams now.. n i feel kinda left out.. not that i WANT exams, and even though i know i still have 4 freaking years to study, meaning i have to enter the stupid exam hall 8 times!!! Want to go back to studies asap, but at the same time i kinda can't bear to leave home again.. The reason i stayed behind was to accompany my mum.. she's still feeling the after effects to the loss of my dad.. and i can understand what she's going thru.. Just gotta study real hard when i reutrn to Aust next year to continue my studies.. and hope my sis can grad soon so she can come back Singpore and find a gd job.. Miss all of my friends, both the ones in Singapore and in Aust.. will prob catch up with everyone during the holidays.. which is coming! Though it's not the end of the year yet, the new year is approaching fast.. and as i reflect back, This year is really a life turning and unexpected one.. so many things happened.. I just hope i will do well now, and grad quickly.. Don't really feel like going back to aust to study sometimes, but no choice.. Being the man of the house now, i gotta be strong and take care of my family.. Well, gtg now.. jus informing those who have been reading my blog, sorry for not updating it regularly.. i shall continue doing it when i have more net access.. N i will be returing back to Adelaide next year, 16th feb.. so will wanna catch up with every1 this year, as next yr, it'll b a fresh new start for me... :-)

Who is this?? hee.. 

Finally back in Aust after going home to S'pore for nearly a week.. for anyone still wondering why i suddenly flew back and disupted my studies till next semester, pls go to yan's blog to see y.. sadness n grief had come upon me and there r times where i just can't control my emotions. I was at a loss, not knowing what to do, where to go next, how my life would change. but my mom is a very strong person, n thu all odds, she managed to settle every issue one by one, determined to give me n my sis a normal n gd life..

i would jus like to say that my dad is a wonderful man. I use the word IS bcos i don believe he is gone. As christians, we believe that in fact he is much happier nw, in a place where there is no pain, suffering n a place where he can enjoy eternal life. We have eternal life too, if we have jesus in our hearts.. there is no trouble to big God cannot solve it, there is no mountain(obstacles) too big he cannot move it. I will forever hold 19/08/2004 as a v special day where my dad went home to be with the Lord.. n i will always remember this verses:

"I am the resurrrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies, amd whoever lives and believes in me will never die." John 11: 25-26

"Surely the goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and i will dwell in the house of the Lord forever." Psalm 23: 6

Such a nice evening.. spent this evening at a church celebrating christmas early!! ahah.. christmas in july.. well, it IS 1st of August.. but cos it is v cold n it is winter here nw in aust, so ppl tend to celebrate x'mas during these middle mths.. so wonderful to meet so many asians particularly cos my college has a v small asian population..  it was nice to see santa in july! ahahah he gave us sweets  and we sang carols..  ate gd food, chatted with fellow s'poreans n students alike.. a v warm n comfortable environment that's all i can say. i'm so happy i joined this Overseas Christian Fellowship.. it def has been God's blessing n will that he bought me here n allowed me to join this wonderful n friendly community of international students. anyway.. tmrw have lessons @ 9am.. gotta sleep soon! signing off...

oh gosh, my 1st day in sch n 1st night out in the pubs... stupid college had a pub night tonight, so was kinda dragged along.. lucky my neighbour walked back with me, if not i am so lost.. every1 drank so much.. but i must say the gathering was huge n a rather social event, jus getting to knw more ppl, n relax. i got to knw a few more 'ang mohs' too.. haha. used to think most of them were not friendly but i guess onli a few aren't.. the rest r great n they r jus basically v friendly ppl. though that dosen mean they R or wanna b yr fren ahaahah.. so tired.. didn't knw what the lecturer was talking abt.. he went so fast.. gosh.. but i must try to catch up or i'm screwed.. missing my dear v much, n family n frens back home too.. but gonna b really bz this sem, so prob won have much time to miss ahahah.. anyway, late ald, going zzz... still have lect tmrw morn...

Wow.. Had a really gd time tonight.. went to Adelaide hills for a bonfire organised by Overseas christian fellowship.. my uni christian organisation.. hee. Went to a couple's house up in the hills.. had bbq.. well, not quite cos it was raining, but the house was v unique n nicely decorated.. such nice ppl, opening their home to over 40 ppl.. and their food was excellent. Sitting ard the bonfire on a cold n rainy night with so many new frens really makes a person feel warm inside... but i still do miss my dear n family n frens back home v much.. Hope i can experience more of these outings! hee.. really thank God for providing me this opportunity to get involved in such a fellowship and getting to knw more frens here in Adelaide.. didn't expect to meet so many malaysians n singaporeans here! was quite shocked, some already completing their studies, some coming for exchange, others like me, starting frm scratch.. well, sch starts on mon, so i must njoy my weekend nw! ahhaha.. actually the 2nd weekend i spent here.. last week was miserable, nothing to do n was almost all alone.. sigh.. well, gotta work v hard soon! All the v best to every1 back home too! Those starting their uni studies for the 1st yr.. work hard n work smart!! :-)

well.. almost a week in adelaide b myslelf.. n missing my dear, frens n family a lot.. v cold here but the environment is nice n quiet. well, smtimes TOO quiet.. hah.. hope every1 is fine back home.. Gets really dark here even at 5pm! haha.. but finding it a bit hard to find frens. cos most og them staying in the college are ang mos.. sigh.. but there r a few exceptions.. hee. i'll jus try to b more friendly n talk more i guess.. gotta adjust a lot to the new college n uni life i guess..

wow.. time sure flies like the wind.. i'm ald leaving for aust tonight.. so sad to leave but also quite excited abt the new adventures n environment there. of cos my dear yan will b quite upset n i'm sure to miss her dearly.. but like i told her upteen times it's all for the best and i will return for her.. i will still b coming back to s'pore anyway.. this dec.. can't wait. hope i can grow closer to God there.. n it's kinda of a coincidence that Adelaide is also knwn as the 'city of chuches' in aust.. so looks like there's no escaping God.. haha.. to all my fens, thank u for being there 4 me n keeping in touch with me, i will need all the company n support when i'm over in aust.. i will b studying v hard, or at least try to.. haha.. n i hope my dear will do the same n succeed together.. hee. to my frens, all the best again for yr journey in life, n to my dearest, i love you so much.. i will b thinking of u constantly but let's focus on our goals n work had for our future success! Muacks!

ORD oh! wow.. really. so fast.. 2.5 yrs jus whizzed past like this. hope my uni life will be jus as if not faster. ahha.. reply came, as xpected, cannot get into NTU again, sigh. gd n bad news.. this means i will really b leaving for aust on 2nd july. yes u heard rite folks, those who knw me n happen to chance on this blog. n i will return in dec. really gonna miss home, family, my frens n most imptly, my dear. but it's for the best i suppose. I'll just have to trust God for what he has planned 4 me. i believe his ways r always the best for me, n things r not always as they seem. bad times will come, but they will pass, n the gd times will always arrive. it's how we look at life. i have begun to accept failures time n time again in my life.. but it dosen mean i'm a failure, cos i Keep Going. i urge all my frens to do the same. i knw sm of my frens n even my own family, sis, n my dear r facing lots of pressure n difficulties in their lives, well, life ain't easy. jus gotta move on n pray for the best. y do i always write so much stuff? hha.. prob coz i'm bored..

wahahaahh!!! ORD loh! i can't believe it! onli 5 days left of my stupid NS life! it's all finally gonna b over!! but come to think of it, it was a pretty enriching experience.. tough yes, but it really instills discipline n responsibility among guys.. but i sure wouldn't want to go thru it again if i was given a chance to! haha..hee..

in camp nw.. bored, stupid unit eating up my leave.. nvm. Sigh, less than a month left b4 i fly off to aust.. gonna miss my dear so much.. stupid ntu still haven given me any reply yet! in a dilemma.. i die either ways, go aust, i not happy, waste $, miss homw, family, my dear.. stay in s'pore, parents will kill me.. cos i DID NOT TELL THEM!!! die.. shi3 lu4 yi1 tiao2.. haha. anyway have been spending time with my dear, but not as much as i expected... cos of her 'family'.. i understand that she needs to spend time with her family n other frens too.. She has been spending lots of time with family, but not with her frens though.. hmm..

well, signing of nw. tried.. gotta wake early.. God bless everyone i knw.. n good luck to all my frens who r ald in uni, going to uni or embarking on a new phase of their lives.. :-)

wow.. nearly a month since i blogged here! ahha.. have been q bz lately too.. can't wait till end of nxt week, clearing leave.. N june is coming!!! ORD loh! haha... have been waiting 4 this day for ages.. really blessed to be posted to my current unit too.. compared to others, i find myself v lucky ald.. can stay out.. gd working environment.. FREE internet.. haha.. my dar having her exams nw.. realli hope she does well. realli miss her. then after next week, can njoy n spend quality time with her ald..

Still waiting 4 letter frm ntu, to see if have been accepted, but i'm losing hope n my dar has informed me that ppl who do not recieve their acceptance letters by this week most likey gone case.. i agree. i don expect myself to enter too, but i was jus hoping n trying. N seeing many of my frens, my dar's bro, my camp mate, all getting their place in local uni really upsets me smtimes, i feel 'different'. not capable n smart enough 4 s'pore standards. But i have since looked on the brighter side of things, n realised that life IS unfair, n that i must still continue to trust in God n his plan for me. I may not be smart, but at least i tell myself that i have the determination n perseverence to carry on n learn frm my mistakes. failure is not the end. It is nvr fatal, n success is nvr final. LIFE IS A JOURNEY> STAY DRIVEN. this is my mssg to every1. nvr give up hope n just give yr best in everything that u do. eventually u CAN n WILL make it.

sigh, miss my dear so much.. she's so bz lately n has ear infection n headaches.. really worry abt this girl.. nvr take gd care of herself.. especially health.

Been reading in papers lately abt parents not wanting to have children.. they feel the environment in s'pore is jus not right to bring up a child who will be brought up academically, but not in other aspects.. sigh. i truly agree.. y let a child suffer in a country where stress levels r so high? i must commend s'pore for doing a gd job though, it has brought up ppl who r well trained and competitive in this fast-paced world of ours.. but smtimes i feel sm ppl just can't take it.. mayb that's y so many ppl commit suicide here.. s'pore just dosen't give it's ppl a chance smtimes.. it only gives chances to those who are scholars, those who can excel, those who knw everything (almost).. then ppl will want to learn anything n everything.. cos this is what it takes to surpass others n succeed n excel in our country.. then ppl will neglect their health, family, relation/friendship, smtimes even religion i think! this is highly unacceptable! i smtimes wonder if my dear is a victim this...? sigh.. i hope not..

That's y i must really thank cjc for letting me in.. i'm not smart, n many ppl thought i couldn't make it, but i proved them wrong. even though i can't get into local uni, i'm still proud of my achievements. cjc gave me that chance to experience jc life.. thank u sml. haha.. Also, i recently found out that s'pore dosen't have enough university places for all it's local students.. yet it wants to let more 'foreign talent' in.. y can't they give non-performers a chance?? sm ppl r late developers n they r not stupid. It's just that they r not given a chance to prove themselves.. so when s'poreans go overseas to study, of course sm of them might want to stay there.. y come back? life is so much better there.. then s'pore will start to rate them as 'stayers' or 'quitters'. how unprofessional. that said, humans r rather selfish, we onli want the best 4 ourselves.

don't know much

Look at this face
I know the years are showin’
Look at this life
I still don’t know where it’s goin’

I don’t know much
But I know I love you
And that may be all I need to know

Look at these eyes
They never see what matters
Look at these dreams
So beat and so battered...

I don’t know much
But I know I love you
That may be all I need to know

So many questions
Still left unanswered
So much I’ve never broken through

And when I feel you near me
Sometimes I see so clearly
The only truth I’ll ever know
Is me and you...

Look at this man
So blessed with inspiration
Look at this soul
Still searching for salvation

I don’t know much
But I know I love you
And that may be all I need to know


I don’t know much
But I know I love you
That may be all I need to know

I don’t know much
But I know I love you
That may be all there is
To know

Beware of a relationship in which there is no laughter. Even the most intimate relationships based only on seriousness have a tendency to turn sour. Over time, sharing a common serious viewpoint on the world tends to turn you against those who do not share the same viewpoint, and your relationship can become based on being critical together. After laughter, look for a partner who deals with the world in a way you respect. When two people first get together, they tend to see their relationship as existing only in the space between the two of them. They find each other endlessly fascinating, and the overwhelming power of the emotions they are sharing obscures the outside world. As the relationship ages and grows, the outside world becomes important again. If your partner treats people or circumstances in a way you can't accept, you will inevitably come to grief. Look at the way she cares for others and deals with the daily affairs of life. If that makes you love her more, your love will grow. If it does not, be careful. If you do not respect the way you each deal with the world around you, eventually the two of you will not respect each other. Look also at how your partner confronts the mysteries of life. We live on the cusp of poetry and practicality, and the real life of the heart resides in the poetic. If one of you is deeply affected by the mystery of the unseen in life and relationships, while the other is drawn only to the literal and the practical, you must take care that the distance does not become an unbridgeable gap that leaves you each feeling isolated and misunderstood.

Dear, another lovely song specially 4 u.. changed the song on our blog too.. :-*


Angels Brought Me Here
by Australian Idol Guy Sebastian



It's been a long and winding journey
But I'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces
Walking back into the light
To the sunset of your glory
Where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling
When I look into your eyes

My dreams came true
When I found you
I found you, my miracle

If you could see what I see
That you're the answer to my prayers
And if you can feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

Standing here before you
Feels like I've been born again
Every breath is your love
Every heartbeat speaks your name

My dreams came true
Right here in front of you
My miracle

If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

Brought me here to be with you
I'd be forever grateful (oh forever grateful)

My dreams came true
When I found you
My miracle

If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

A Wish For You...



I made a wish for you today,
a wish straight from my heart.
I didn't wish you riches, fame,
or fortune to impart,
But I did wish you the finer things
whose worth has no measure,
the type of things you'll value
more than wealth or treasure.
I wished you endless hope,
good health, and love,
and all the wonderful things in life
your heart is dreaming of.
I wished you lots of strength,
during times of trial and stress,
and inspiration to spark your soul
and bring you happiness. :-)

Tomorrow can be too late...

If you're mad with someone , and nobody's there to fix the situation...
You fix it .
Maybe today, that person still wants to be your friend .
And if u don't, tomorrow can be too late .

If you're in love with somebody , but that person doesn't know...tell her/him.
Maybe today, that person is also in love with you .
And if you don't say it, tomorrow can be too late .

If you really want to kiss somebody... kiss her/him.
Maybe that person wants a kiss from you, too .
And if you don't kiss her/him today, tomorrow can be too late .

If you still love a person that you think has forgetten you... tell her/him.
Maybe that person have always loved you.
And if you don't tell her/him today , tomorrow can be too late.

If you need a hug of a friend... ask her/him for it.
Maybe they need it more than you do.
And if you don't ask for it today, tomorrow can be too late.

If you really have friends who you appreciate... tell them.
Maybe they appreciate you as well.
That if you don't and they leave or go far away today , tomorrow can be too late.

If you love your parents, and never had the chance to show them... do it .
Maybe you have them there to show them how you feel.
That if you don't and they leave today , then tomorrow can be too late.

dear, the changed song on my blog is specially 4 u! love u n missing u lots!!!

jus came back frm aust yesterday.. boy was it hot!! the temp can soar up to 39 degrees or more! shocking. And the flies r super irritating! they attack yr face and seem to want to enter yr ears! eew.. and they stick on to yr clothes! they jus love dark colour clothing so u r a fly magnet if u wear any of those.. i swear nvr to go aust during summer again. haha anyway, helped my sis move here stuff to her hostel room.. free labour. haha.. she had tonns of stuff to carry up.. TO THE 3RD floor! that's 6 flights of stairs! lucky army training has eased the load a bit but it was v. tiring nevertheless. and it made me vow not to bring so much stuff when it's my turn to go over. haha missed my dear so much, but nw miss my sis. sigh, y must i always hve to leave sm1 behind? But i suppose it's for the better gd and i strive to make the best of the experience and hopefully have a better future.. with sm1.. wee, back in s'pore ald, gotta get over the post holiday syndrome. haha..

True?? hee...

Taken frm a quiz: http://www.usagiandmamoru.com/quiz/man.html


You are a Prince!
Possessing a strong will, you are ambitious and determined, valiant and noble, but still know how to have fun.


You admit you still have a lot to learn in life, but what you have learned and experienced has brought you far! You strive to achieve the best in yourself and to meet your own expectations as well as those of others around you. When under pressure to perform, you do so with flying colors, but if you fail, you may fall into slight depression but will always get back on your feet because of your strong will and nature. Personal growth and learning are highly important to you! You will go far in life.

Dear, posted on our shared blog lately haven't we? hee.. I'm so happy to b with u.. I totally treasure n njoy every moment i have with u.. i'll see u again soon my darling! MUACKS!! <3

Taken frm websit: http://haleonline.com/psychtest/index.php



You're an INFJ
INFJ
You're future-oriented, and direct your insight and inspiration towards understanding yourself and thereby, human nature...your work mirrors your integrity....reflects your inner ideals...solitude and a chance to concentrate thoroughly on what counts most is important to you...you like to quietly exert your influence...you have deeply felt compassion and desire harmony with others...you'll go to great lengths to avoid conflict...

You understand the complexities existing within people...you don't call a lot of attention to yourself...you like to let your accomplishments do your talking....you look for a small group of people who understand and appreciate you and hang with them....you're gentle and don't like violence...

You'd rather have a few close friends instead of be at a big party ...you'll do well in college as your "day in the sun" where your brains count more than they did in that ol' shallow high school...you want your work to contribute to the general good...

You have a strong love of learning...you get along well with teachers and older people...you write well 'cause you can formulate your ideas clearly... you have integrity and consistency....you don't like the "politics" at work.. you'd rather be able to talk honestly with people than "play games." (you still play games on the Storm Palace, but would rather post! :) )...intuitive insights into situations...

You're quiet yet persistent and determined in your efforts toward long-term goals....when you work toward your vision, you win cooperation rather than demand it...even if you don't lead others, you still facilitate things... leisure time usually is solitary or involves the company of others particularly important to you...you're perfectly happy just sitting around with close buds discussing feelings...you'd rather have longstanding friends than make many new acquaintences...these deep friendships are important to you, even though you may not share much about yourself...

You become attracted to someone special and prefer this one deep one over many superficial ones...this depth, though, is only partially communicated outwards...you like a regular "date", revisiting the place where you first met your mates, or doing other symbolic things that help to continue or confirm the existence of the bond.

You may have an ideal standard of the way love is...you're often disappointed when reality doesn't quite match up....you want to give love and be loved... you enter into relationships just to be cared for...even when the other person isn't right for you and you know it....when you meet the right person, though, you are quick to get involved with them and make it a serious one... you'll end other relationships to be with this "right" one....

When you're scorned, you take it personally and retreat inward...you may obsess about the relationship and your role in the failure...you blame yourself for a failed relationship and might even need a period of mourning.

You should watch out for becoming blinded by the idealism of your visions or if you focus only on your ideas...this could make you ignore reality when it contradicts those lofty ideals...you could stay with a belief or commitment beyond what the facts would support (stubborn?)...you're loyal...

Also, you could lose out if you don't act assertively and are reluctant to intrude on others with your ideas...as a result, you could keep many important things to yourself...you'll then feel that your ideas are underestimated or unappreciated...maybe you should develop political saavy or assertiveness to sell your ideals...finally, you should be forthright with criticism of others...you're always doing the "If you can't say some- thing nice...." stuff. After you hold it inside, you'll blow up eventually.

INFJ: "Inner Nuances Fosters Journeys"