wow.. nearly a month since i blogged here! ahha.. have been q bz lately too.. can't wait till end of nxt week, clearing leave.. N june is coming!!! ORD loh! haha... have been waiting 4 this day for ages.. really blessed to be posted to my current unit too.. compared to others, i find myself v lucky ald.. can stay out.. gd working environment.. FREE internet.. haha.. my dar having her exams nw.. realli hope she does well. realli miss her. then after next week, can njoy n spend quality time with her ald..

Still waiting 4 letter frm ntu, to see if have been accepted, but i'm losing hope n my dar has informed me that ppl who do not recieve their acceptance letters by this week most likey gone case.. i agree. i don expect myself to enter too, but i was jus hoping n trying. N seeing many of my frens, my dar's bro, my camp mate, all getting their place in local uni really upsets me smtimes, i feel 'different'. not capable n smart enough 4 s'pore standards. But i have since looked on the brighter side of things, n realised that life IS unfair, n that i must still continue to trust in God n his plan for me. I may not be smart, but at least i tell myself that i have the determination n perseverence to carry on n learn frm my mistakes. failure is not the end. It is nvr fatal, n success is nvr final. LIFE IS A JOURNEY> STAY DRIVEN. this is my mssg to every1. nvr give up hope n just give yr best in everything that u do. eventually u CAN n WILL make it.

sigh, miss my dear so much.. she's so bz lately n has ear infection n headaches.. really worry abt this girl.. nvr take gd care of herself.. especially health.

Been reading in papers lately abt parents not wanting to have children.. they feel the environment in s'pore is jus not right to bring up a child who will be brought up academically, but not in other aspects.. sigh. i truly agree.. y let a child suffer in a country where stress levels r so high? i must commend s'pore for doing a gd job though, it has brought up ppl who r well trained and competitive in this fast-paced world of ours.. but smtimes i feel sm ppl just can't take it.. mayb that's y so many ppl commit suicide here.. s'pore just dosen't give it's ppl a chance smtimes.. it only gives chances to those who are scholars, those who can excel, those who knw everything (almost).. then ppl will want to learn anything n everything.. cos this is what it takes to surpass others n succeed n excel in our country.. then ppl will neglect their health, family, relation/friendship, smtimes even religion i think! this is highly unacceptable! i smtimes wonder if my dear is a victim this...? sigh.. i hope not..

That's y i must really thank cjc for letting me in.. i'm not smart, n many ppl thought i couldn't make it, but i proved them wrong. even though i can't get into local uni, i'm still proud of my achievements. cjc gave me that chance to experience jc life.. thank u sml. haha.. Also, i recently found out that s'pore dosen't have enough university places for all it's local students.. yet it wants to let more 'foreign talent' in.. y can't they give non-performers a chance?? sm ppl r late developers n they r not stupid. It's just that they r not given a chance to prove themselves.. so when s'poreans go overseas to study, of course sm of them might want to stay there.. y come back? life is so much better there.. then s'pore will start to rate them as 'stayers' or 'quitters'. how unprofessional. that said, humans r rather selfish, we onli want the best 4 ourselves.